I cant see myself righht anymore...i screw up all the time...othing seems to being right...im losing time ...i caould die tomorrow.What am I suposed to do. My heart trying to be pulled back nto my old routine of heartbreak and depression...I cant let myself get like this again...

What do you do when everything around you seems like a dream and your in love and you wouldnt trade never waking up for anything?You cant do anything and you shouldnt want to. I dont! I..m in love with most amazing person ever. I have never let anyone get to me like he has. My heart Is jumping out of my chest,my stomach gets butterflys and everything is just so blissfully perfect and because your happy you have the right one in your life you cant look at anything in a negetive way anymore and you dont want to. I try and try to feel some kind of pain just to know that im not honestly dreaming.When I..m around him there is this undescribable feelings i get and I just never want to leave him.I laugh out loud and smile all the time because I..m thinking of something he said last week. I smile just thinking of him and he is the last person I think of night and first in the morning! When I feel his arms around me there is a sence of secureity and comfort. When we kiss everything goes hazey and i cant breathe and I lose track of self and I..m on a high that will never come down. There is nothing but me and him and the rest of the world and its casos disapearse...I can only thank God for sending me him and giving me this amazing gift to love and to be loved. I love you Joseph. That..s never going to change.

Im in love! And I would lose my bestfriend if he was gone tomorrow.My heart would break but at least I know some one loved me and that that person will always be with me in my heart.